Are You Sure I’m Dead?
“Are you sure I’m dead?”
“I’m almost positive you’re dead. It must have been a long time ago if you don’t recognize my computer.”
“Right after the war ended.”
“Yes, I was taken right at the end. I thought it was victory, but I was kidnapped by two women. I didn’t trust them.”
“How did they take you?”
She showed me an image of being physically assaulted with her mouth being covered. The two women restrained her.
“They wouldn’t tell me where they were taking me, they just told me to shut up.”
She continued, “They hurt me.”
She showed me an image of her being strapped to a table and naked.
“They cut me, they…(details in Silent Whispers)
“There were men there now, doing this?”
“Yes, they seemed to enjoy it.”
“Do you know why they were cutting you?”
“Not really. It was like they were…(details in Silent Whispers)
“Is this how you died?”
“Not right away, they would stop and start over time. I became so scared of them. They didn’t care about me or how they were hurting me, what they were doing to me.”
“Eventually…(details in Silent Whispers)”
“And that’s how you died…”
“Do you see a light?”
“I’m so sorry they hurt you.”
“They treated me like an animal!”
She fell to the floor crying.
She stayed on the floor, holding her knees to her chest in a self-protective position.
“There is a place you can go where you don’t feel this pain anymore,”
As I said that the Speaker finally came in.
“Finally!” I said
She looked at me and smiled her compassionate smile
“Patience,” she told me.
Patience…I get told that so many times!
“This one too,” she nodded at the little boy still hiding in front of my footboard.
“He’s ready to speak now,” she said.
“I will assist this one and return,” she said and moved towards the teen girl.
The girl, while crying, went with her and the little boy came closer to me.
“Where is he? He’s nice.”
He was talking about my grandson, Conor.
“He went to school, sweetie.”
“You’re nice too,” he said.
“Do you want my help?”
“I want to know…,” he said.
“Want to know what?”
“What it’s like to not be hurting.”